I just finished re-reading Anne's House of Dreams (#5 of the Anne of Green Gable's saga). In college, I found that L.M. Montgomery's books do my heart good - especially when it's hurting. I remembered vaguely that Anne and Gilbert lost their first child too so I turned to the girl of bosom friends to see what one is to do in this situation.
I cried during the entire chapter. Then Gilbert got her a housekeeper to do the cooking and cleaning while she recovered. As if! And she bonded with the girl down the way who had previously thought her life too perfect to truly be friends (I think she missed that whole orphan, terrible life pre-Green Gables part). And then she moved on. At least it seems.
Toward the end of the book, Anne is talking with their good friend the lighthouse keeper. Wouldn't you love to live in a world where you are BFF's with a lighthouse keeper? He told Anne, who was worrying that her baby wouldn't know her in heaven that, "God would manage better than that my
baby would seem a stranger to me when I found her
So, my friend that's due the day before our due date? I've kind of stunk it up in the friend department on that one. And yet, in a way, her son will be a blessing. It has hurt, watching her get bigger and bigger. And yet, seeing her son grow up? It will give me a little taste of how big our Michael would be. When Anne talked about her daughter a year or so later, she said, "I've
followed her development day by day and week by week--I
always shall. I shall know just how she grows from
year to year--and when I meet her again I'll know
her--she won't be a stranger."
I don't know that I feel our little Michael will be a stranger - we ask him for prayers every night. But having a little one to see grow up, although hard, will make it a lot easier to have a visual of our little beloved.
On a lighter note (and as if the bacon were not enough celebration) I made the Pioneer Woman's Carrot Cake yesterday for Frank's Birthday. It's awesome!! It will be my go to recipe from now on!!